"MY DREAM MAN"
i'm going to share something i've kept to myself until only recently. i share it only because i've gotten really great, helpful responses, suggestions, and even questions about it that made me think about some of the things in it, from both male and female friends.
i made a list of what i would ideally want in a man about three years ago as a reminder/guide to myself after having failed attempts at dating/relationships. the list has changed and will continue to do so over time, end eventually become non-existent when i'm 80 and alone. also, since the first question every person has asked is, "what if he doesn't possess some of these qualities/traits/characteristics, is it a deal-breaker?" of course not. i'm completely aware that a man who fulfills this list completely, doesn't exist, hence the title, "DREAM MAN?" i have to be flexible and open when getting to know someone, and even being in a relationship with him...
let me cringe for a second before you read the list, because i feel like this is exposing a lot of me, but is also something i really want to share.
aaaand GO!
those days
those days that make you want to be elsewhere
those days you make a spur of the moment decision that could determine the path to your future...
those days when comfort is under a warm blanket.
those days when the sun hits your cheeks and the wind mazes through your hair...
those days when you think about someone, and wonder if they're thinking about you.
those days when you want to tell everyone to fuck off...
those days when solitude feels like home, and loneliness is painful...
ding.
the soundtrack to my life the past few weeks.
baaaah
do you ever go on road trips, see something interesting, and pull over just to take it all in?
is it silly that that's what i did when i saw sheep?
i might be posting pictures of cows next so be prepared!
on love, and what not and so on and so forth...
I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.
–Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything Is Illuminated
Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place.
–Zora Neale Hurston
Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.
–James Baldwin
Love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real.
–Iris Murdoch
go out there and fall in love, y'all! i promise the heartache will be worth it...
xo xo
it's been beautiful in san francisco the past couple of weeks. spring is eager to arrive, and i can't wait! there are a lot of things to look forward to this year, and i'm sooo excited. i'm not entirely sure what those exact things are, but i think i kind of have a clue. or, rather, it's in the back of my head. things are moving, happening, in transition... to some really good things. i'm feelin' it.
feel it with me.
xo.
all you need is love is all you need
to the ones that feel the loneliness sometimes, even when you know you're not alone, even when you know you are loved and love greatly, i see you. i hear you. i feel you. i love you, too.
hug longer, love louder
i'm fortunate enough to be living only five blocks from the beach. and when i get home from work early enough to see it, this is what i'm gifted with.
how does one not feel grateful to see this at the end of a busy workday, or any day, really? it's a constant reminder that there's so much more than the little things that make us worry, stress, and get frazzled about.
(no filter, not photoshopped, btw)
je t'embrasse très fort
...mahoosively!
...here's to an even better year!
